Sam

Fri, 25 Mar 2005 03:00:54 GMT

yo.

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Fri, 23 Jul 2004 00:48:14 GMT

Hey kids.
I'm changing my journal to _retrosexual

feel free to add me, i'd love it if you would.

Thu, 22 Jul 2004 03:17:29 GMT

I have a lot of restless energy today.

So I painted my nails.
Listened to angry music.
And ran two miles.

Then to occupy more time, I made a wishlist at ae.com. I fucking love their fall clothes. My wishlist total came up to over $1,000. Yeah good thing I have a job, I know where that cash is going.

I need new shoes.

Wed, 21 Jul 2004 16:28:03 GMT

i haven't written much lately.

i don't feel like me anymore. hmm.

yesterday i went to greenville, to see Kat perform. She was amazing. I saw Taylor for like five minutes, and he waved to me and waited around awhile, but we were surrounded by a group of people and by the time the masses has subsided he was gone. Oh well.

that's all for now. i need something to pass the time.

and i don't feel pretty.

Fri, 16 Jul 2004 21:47:45 GMT

im saw this coming, despite how sad that is
and i even prepared myself for this
but sometimes it just really hurts to be proven right.

my best friend called last night, to tell me that she and the guy im involved with are getting really close, and that she is falling for him. real friends stab you in the front.

he is by no means my boyfriend, i know that. but we were talking, and had plans. it's just not fucking fair. and i'm a few hours away from both of them right now, having no impact on what happens.

what the hell is wrong wth people these days.

i'm not crying over this anymore, starting now.

oooh superhot

Fri, 16 Jul 2004 01:16:23 GMT

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When did you first kiss someone? When I was 13, after our second date haha.
What is your pets name? Dog- Muffy. My late hamster- Homie. (he was black)
What celebrity is the hottest? Patrick Fugit or Adam Brody...dont make me choose.
Who is your best lj friend? laslo, as we are related. wonder__wall
What is your favorite celebrity kiss? spiderman by far.

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Thu, 15 Jul 2004 21:01:30 GMT

I see Kat and Taylor (i think) on tuesday!!! Eep.

HAIRCUT!!!

i am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself

Mon, 12 Jul 2004 00:25:16 GMT

Don't you hate it when you're at the point with someone, and it's like deciding whether you are supposed to care or not.
Well I hate it...so I'm just going to be laid back and not take this seriously till there is a reason to.

Kat left this morning for gov. school, so did Taylor. Two weeks without my best friend and my lover (ha not really. i dont think) He's cool. I don't know what the deal is.

I made a target run, and came home with some neutrogena makeup, clear skin yay, noxema skin pads, and curling iron, brilliant brunette shampoo, and a light up mirror. Wow.

My boss hates me. He didn't give me any shifts this week. Hmm. Guess I'll have to restrict my spending then.

My entries have been completely meaningless. I guess I'm scared to put in words how i really feel.

Once you told me I was beautiful...and I spent hours in my mirror, convincing myself to believe it. And maybe I do, just a little. Now that you're gone, and you've left me with a glimmer of hope, but all alone with these fading memories.

Sun, 11 Jul 2004 17:55:00 GMT

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so i dyed my hair darker.
no its not black.
i think i do like it though.
and im cutting it either this tuesday or next.
hmm.
please give me your oppinion, even if i don't know who the hell you are.
thank you for your time.
have a nice day.

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Fri, 09 Jul 2004 22:40:38 GMT

Emo fetus...hoorah!

Thu, 08 Jul 2004 18:39:29 GMT

I'm getting my hair cut tuesday. Excitement.

I do love Mr. Cameron Gardner. He came over and hung out with Kai and me for awhile, but he had to leave early, like 10:30 last night cause his silly behind has summer school. Movies, fireworks, and pizza. And modeling shoots with his sexy self in an unfinished house. Good times.

I finally saw Kill Bill. That's a lot of blood.

Wed, 07 Jul 2004 00:45:30 GMT

Spiderman 2 was good. I saw it again this afternoon. Then we had 6 people pile into a convertable...and guess who the lucky girl who had to sit on laps was? Yeah sad life for me.

Then Lee and I walked around Target for like an hour. I got nail polish and it made me happy. I'm going to paint my nails tonight, the color is called magentAHH. it makes me feel bold.

I keep being tempted to buy CD's, even though I can just as easily burn them. Music is good. Yay for that.

That is all.

LESLIE I FOUND YOUR SHIRT BITCH

Fri, 02 Jul 2004 02:45:57 GMT

Today was good. People can still surpise me sometimes.

it's love

Thu, 01 Jul 2004 05:09:26 GMT

okay i am completely in love. with...

Patrick Fugit.
Yes he was in White Oleander.
And Saved.

But Almost Famous is the greatest movie, and his character William is the love of my life. That is all.

LASLO...who do you think he kind of looks/dresses like? haha

how divine

Tue, 29 Jun 2004 00:24:52 GMT

"I try to believe," she said, "that God doesn't give you more than one little piece of the story at once. You know, the story of your life. Otherwise your heart would crack wider than you can handle. He only cracks it enough so you can still walk, like someone wearing a cast. But you've still got a crack running up your side, big enough for a sappling to grow out of. Only no one sees it. Nobody sees it. Everybody thinks you're one whole piece, and so they treat you maybe not so gentle as they would if they could see that crack."

-The Divine Secrets of the Ya Ya Sisterhood.

Thank you Rebecca Wells

PICTURE TIME

Mon, 28 Jun 2004 01:07:52 GMT

haha

Sun, 27 Jun 2004 20:54:41 GMT

Riffs [4:59 PM]: yes, jacob tinman has a concience
TwistedSista [5:00 PM]: but he cant spell it
Riffs [5:00 PM]: no he cant
Riffs [5:00 PM]: but i can spell jiminy crickett
Riffs [5:00 PM]: and its pretty much the same thing

Sat, 26 Jun 2004 18:16:08 GMT

personal
name: Sam
dob: January 16th, 1989
location: SC
religion: agnostic
occupation: hostess at a restaurant
appearance
hair: brown
eyes: brown
height: 5'8
style
clothing: jeans, hoodies, tees, skirts
music: alternative, indie, rock,
make up: some. not really into it.
bodyart: considering it. i'd be more likely to go for a piercing instead
right now
wearing: cheerleading shorts and a lexington volleyball tshirt. LASLO!
listening to: copeland- there cannot be a close second
thinking of: stupid boys who screw you over
where are you: computer room
who are you with: all alone
last thing
bought: movie ticket for the Notebook
read: Angels and Demons by Dan Brown
watched on tv: some VH1 i'm thinking
said: "yeah mom love you too see you when you get home"
either/or
club or houseparty: houseparty
tea or coffee: coffee all the way
achiever or slacker: acheiver
beer or cider: cider
drinks or shots: drinks
cats or dogs: dogs
single or taken: single i guess
pen or pencil: colorful pens
gloves or mittens: neither
cassette or cd: CD
coke or pepsi: neither
hard or mild alcohol: meh depends. im not much of a drinker anyways
matches or a lighter: lighter
rikki lake or oprah winfrey: Oprah. I like the makeover or decorating shows. I need a life.
who do you want to
kill: nobody thanks
get really wasted with: there's a few kids i might light up with. but getting really wasted isnt my thing.
look like: i'm cool with the way i look i think.
be like: no one really
avoid: all guys right now
kiss: there was someone but they changed my mind on that. fucker.
be with: see above
last person you...
touched: Katy
talked to: Laslo on the phone
hugged: Katy
instant messaged: Zach Gates
kissed: dont want to talk about them now
who broke your heart: Eric probably...i stopped caring after that haha
you talked to on the phone: Laslo
where do you
eat: wherever the food is
dance: nowhere
cry: wherever i am that i feel the need to cry
wish you were: anywhere but here
have you ever
dated one of your best friends?: yep...mistake
loved somebody so much it makes you cry? i dont think so
drank alcohol?: yeah
done drugs?: yeah
broken the law?: yeah.
ran away from home?: no
broken a bone?: no
cheated on a test?: yup
skinny dipped?: nope
flashed someone?: yeah
mooned Someone?: ha i think so
kissed someone you didn't know?: yeah
been on a talk show/game show?: no
been in a fight?: yep.
ridden in a fire truck?: no
been on a plane?: no
come close to dying?: not really
cheated on your boy/girlfriend?: never
gave someone a piggy back/shoulder ride?: yep...you fat ass kids
eaten a worm/mud pie?: like the edible kind? then yeah haha
swam in the ocean?: of course
had a nightmare/dream that made you wake up?: yep
wanted to die: not really
really kissed someone of the same sex: nope
relationships and mushy stuff
girlfriend/boyfriend: single
when and who was your last crush?: recent. not saying who.
what do you first notice about the opposite sex: face or body. dont really know
your idea of a perfect date: dont really have one
how romantic are you?: very. i'm such a girl
my ideal guy/girl: i'll let you know when i find him
diferent things at different times
your first kiss: ha scary
do you have a crush: not really a crush
how long was your longest relationship: a month and a half. ha yep dating sucks
what is the most embarrassing cd in your collection?: i dont really buy CD's...i think i have a backstreet boys CD though from back in the day
your bedroom like?: pictures and signs and photography everywhere
your favorite thing for breakfast?: cheerios with chocolate syrup
your favorite thing for lunch?: chicken shawarma wrap with hummus. yeah i work in a mediterranean restaurant
your favorite thing for dinner?: pizza probably
your favorite restaurant?: Al Amir or O'Charleys
future
what day is it tomorrow?: sunday
what are you going to do after this?: who knows. exercise maybe
who are you going to talk to?: Katy probably. im talking to her now
where are you going to go?: to work at 5
how old will you be when you graduate?: 18
what do you wanna be?: happy
what is one of your dreams?: to go to the gov. school for the arts
are you
a vegetarian?: nope.
a good student:yeah
good at wake boarding/snow boarding: never tried
a good singer?: oh god no
a good actor/actress?: yeah i guess
a deep sleeper?: sometimes
a good dancer?: who knows
shy?: depends on the situation
outgoing?: pretty much
a good storyteller?: sure

Sat, 26 Jun 2004 02:11:43 GMT

i hate the fact that im a cynical bitch who thinks that people can't be trusted. i hate that i feel that putting the past behind me won't work and that i can never escape what happened.

and what i hate even more, is that people keep proving me right.

fuck it

Thu, 24 Jun 2004 01:38:40 GMT

i believe in fate again. but thats all i can believe in.

i don't know what to do with me anymore.

that is all.

Mon, 14 Jun 2004 01:16:58 GMT

I haven't updated in a few days. So.

Friday I had tennis practice and worked that night. It was really busy but I made good money. Not really eventful.

Saturday...I went to driver's school! Ha that was so boring. It was funny though because me and my friend who I went with decided to make ourselves look hot just for entertainment. I ended up seeing two guys I knew back in seventh grade...my unpretty days. I don't think they recognized me at first. Then that night I had work, whiched sucked. The waiters on that night were dickheads. Sometimes people at the restaurant take advantage of me cause I'm only 15, and they give me a really hard time. So I did a ton of work, and none of the waiters even tipped me, like they're supposed to.

Today was really uneventful. I feel unpretty.

Loser armed with a camera.

Wed, 09 Jun 2004 20:24:20 GMT

mmmm...coffee Bathing suit...ahhh. I look like a porn star.BRACES...ah I know they're terrible

I take the pretzels out of my chex mix.

Wed, 09 Jun 2004 02:16:34 GMT

How many calories do you need to consume a day to be healthy? My parents believe I take dieting overboard. Pssshhh.

I decided to post a picture of my car. Well, soon to be mine, as I can't drive yet.

Jealous??? You should be.

Tue, 08 Jun 2004 20:31:34 GMT

My brother is an idiot. He told me I had work at 4:30, but then I get a call at 12 saying I should have been there 30 minutes ago. How the hell do you mix up 4 and 11? It was no big deal though, I don't think anyone cares anymore. Business was slow, so Andrew came by and we chilled and ate pizza. Life is good.

Now I have the night off...I don't know if I feel like going anywhere. The partying has to end sometime right? haha. I'll probably just be productive, work out or something. Championships and tournaments are coming up, so I need to get in shape. Plus I just bought that hot new bikini so there's more motivation.

I think I have pretty hands. I've finally stopped biting my nails too, so that's a plus. I bought some nail polish the other day. Surprising, normally I don't waste my money on stuff like that. But it made me happy. I think I might fork out some cash for a pedicure or something. I deserve it, with all the working I've been doing.

I got another job, along with the hostessing. Every thursday I'm going to take care of this lady's kids. Country club women are so odd. She's probably going to go play tennis or golf or something else trivial and useless.

That's all folks. Leave some comments. I need to feel the love.

mending the past

Tue, 01 Jun 2004 01:16:46 GMT

I still feel so overly profound. I think everything out too much these days. I'm caught up in the past...but obsessed with the future.

I think I'm on a self improvement kick. To start that off, I decided on reconnecting with old ties. Its not as easy as it seems. I first spoke with my friend Joel, who's my ex I guess. It didn't last long, because I felt rushed into the relationship, cause yes I'm weird about that. But I know I ended up hurting him along the way, which I never intended. I'm not used to people caring...

TwistedSista777: well i gotta finish packing for the beach...but it was nice talking to you again
yehImJoel: same here
TwistedSista777: and for the record, I'm sorry about everything that happened, well, awhile ago. I didn't mean to hurt or confuse you, and the fact that we kind of lost touch afterwards didnt help.
yehImJoel: yeh its ok
yehImJoel: we should hang out some time
TwistedSista777: we should. it'd be nice to start over.

Well, hanging out might be a little much. But it's not like I could say no. We'll do something with a group then. Less chance of akward moments.

Shoot me. I tried.

EDIT
Hmm still reconnecting now. I talked to my best friend from back in the day. We caught up on things, joked around. It was different though, because she was the one who screwed me over this time. Not going to go into it, but when everything she did came together...it messed me up for quite awhile.

I ended up alright. and now I can feel better about myself, because I have forgiven her. I think I have anyways...